Neptunian Denial: "Who Wants to Play the Blame Game?"
My past relationships have been the muse behind my creativity. Stormy ups and downs, silent treatments, and heartfelt apologies are only but a few words that can be used to describe the stormy sea's I've once sailed. If anyone were to ask me the cause of these failed relationships a few years ago, I would be sure to have a phone book worth of victim like ideologies and excuses. "He was abusive!", "She was mentally ill!", "These transits are fucking me up lately.", you name it! Excuses could have been my middle name. It was not until very recently that I was forced to examine my own behaviors and thought patterns that could be leading to these treacherous outcomes without displacing the blame onto the most readily available victim partner. Looking back, I now realize that I was doing everything in my power to escape my own truth.
Pisces: two fish swimming in opposite directions. The objective: trying to get the two fish to meet. The challenge: remaining afloat when taking a trip to the dark side and remaining balanced when basking in the light. Light comes easy to the fish. It's the darkness that must become welcomed and equally accepted. A Neptunian's inability to accept the Yin energy leads to extreme bouts of frustration, rage, and in severe cases, depression. Due to this fear of "the void", Neptunians deeply struggle with self identity. There is always a puzzle piece missing, as the picture is seldom whole through the fishy's eyes. Some Neptunians will choose to foucs on their better qualities, whether it be their selflessness, attention to detail, generosity, or unconditional loving style. It is when you ask a Neptunian to look at their flaws that the mind games begin. Pay attention to the mood's of the fish. Though there may be difficulty in voicing thoughts and feelings, mood swings can paint a more vivid picture than scatter-brained conversation could. The fish will often retreat into isolation, emotionally detach, or seek an emotional escape through unhealthy outlets when asked to confront their yin energy. What the fish is really looking for is instant gratification and validation that the pure and wholesome images once used to describe the self are still potent and true.
Struggling to accept reality is a very natural and healthy part of the human experience. It is when the struggle leads to escapism and denial that a real problem presents itself. Tragedy, pain, and trauma are experiences that all humans are subject to. But when Neptune refuses to accept life's uglier moments, a bigger shadow is only projected onto the world. The funny thing about Neptune is that is has the power to be a great healer, but also a great enemy to mankind. The reality is that Neptune is too abstract to deal with real world phenomenon such as accountability, responsibility, and structure. When these rules are places upon Neptune's boundless waters, the planet begins to sink. For this reason, fish will do everything to stay afloat, whether that be engaging in endless fantasy, role play, or flat out rejection of the truth.
Though frustrating to the more logical and internally organized counterparts of the collective, all hope is not lost. If ever put in a situation, with a Neptunian, in which accountability and responsibility must be dished out, practice exchanging ideas rather than giving orders. At the end of the day, Neptune is a collaborative planet that seeks to promote peace and harmony on planet earth. As a source that thoroughly enjoys spreading bouts of yang energy through a given environment, we must help our fellow friends in accepting the yin. We would not throw a child on the street and expect them to fend for themselves. So when dealing with more fragile beings, it is important to practice patience, understanding, and compassion. These actions alone are guaranteed to breed more satisfying results from our fishy pals.
